The FiReCrAcKeR

So... with all of this packing and cleaning you're bound to come across things that you haven't seen for a while. Some things that you can just throw out (JMU tests), others that have some sort of sentimental value to them (Ah, pictures), some that you didn't think you saved but found and want to destroy (some other pictures!!), etc.

Well, i'm gonna share with you all an excerpt from a letter from a good friend- one who has since passed away as a result of 9-11-01. He actually died a year later (on 9-11-02), but as a result from injuries sustained on 9-11-01. Anyways, on to writing... here's an excerpt from a letter from Leigh Michael Osment, 3/02:

"he looked at me, eyes so so sad, and pulled from his pocket a picture... a tattered, bloodstained picture of a little girl. He told me all about her, how she was his granddaughter, and how he loved her very much and to tell her that everything was going to be ok and to 'spread as much love as she could in this solemn world.' I told him I would do my best to find the girl, and tell her his message, but assured him that his chances of survival were pretty good. He smiled at me and looked away. We got him out from the debris but on the way to the hospital he coded, and died of heart failure...

"I kept that with me... and as a personal thing, I kept looking for his granddaughter. And one day, six months later, I happened to find her. I told her his message and she was awestruck. She said it had special meaning for her because her grandfather was a widowed man, who never gave up on love, but, she had negative experiences in the past and her grandfathers word gave her a light into the future. It was at this point i realized my carrer path helped certain people more than just providing emergency care for them...

"I'm writing about all of this to you because I know that you've been discouraged. Because I know this country has been discouraged. I know that it's natural instinct when you're hurt to fight back... but maybe we all need to be like the old man and truly let our love flow. Love can combat all hate, and there is no force stronger. The only problem with love is that when you open yourself up that much, you're open to scorn, hurt, and ridicule by those who don't understand. The only reason someone can hurt you, is because they don't understand you. Even though you're bound to get hurt, you must share that love, and everything will work out. Think of how much nicer a place the world would be, if all hate were replaced by love. It's unimaginable... "


It meant so much to read that again, and to remember. Every experience in life happens for a reason. Negative or Positive, everything has a lesson that can be learned. Despite getting hurt on numerous occasions, it is those few and precious times that you need to look forward to in order to live life. Share your love, and your skills... at least we can make a small part of the world better...

It's when things seem the hardest that you mustn't quit.

To remember is to honor.
God Bless Leigh Osment and his family, FDNY 3/12/80-9/11/02.

God brought to earth man. And Man created gossip.

Ok, so there are times when I'll admit I'm bored to hell and can't think of something to do... but never do i think about gossiping about someone else's life. It leads to people getting into things that they have no buisness getting in. If it's not your life, and you weren't asked an opinion on it, and it's someone else's business.... then don't get up in it. If you're asked an opinion, then by all means provide it. Hell, sometimes you can provide that even if you're not asked. But DO NOT try to take someone else's business into your hands-- it's not yours to meddle in.

Stuff like that has the potential to ruin friendships, and turn people against each other. Not to mention it is the cardinal cause of DRAMA... and i hate drama. So, don't meddle in things that you shouldn't.Take note from Mary J. Blige-- NO MORE DRAMA!!!

Another thing I'd like to touch on here is the value of friendship. There are many types and kinds of friends, but i'd like to touch on three... you have your best friends, who call you and spend time with you and CARE about you (or they can be the best friends that you never see because they are 300 miles away! but you talk to a lot!); then you've got those acquantaince friends... those are the ones that you see in passing, spend time with occasionally; and of course, those convienience friends, the ones who only call you when they have a free moment, those who don't care about you until it is convienient for them. Take note of those friends who take up for you and spend time with you. Ultimately, they will be a source of support for you (whether that support be holding up your beer bong, or patting you on the back after a job well done, or sitting beside you in the jail cell when you're getting booked)... they'll be there.If you're my friend I'll be there for you... as long as you'll be there for me.

Ok. I'm done blogging for the morning. It's time for bed. Love my readers long time!

This entry is going to be like an article out of Cosmo... or Sex and the City. If you don't want to read it... then leave!

Here is my question of the week: How do you display to a member of the opposite sex that you have feelings for them without going "overboard"? For girls, if we come on too strong, guys think we're slutty. If we don't come on enough, they don't think we have feelings towards them. What is a happy medium?

It's the same with intimate relations. If a girl gives it her all at first and doesn't hold back... the guy thinks she's a slut. But if she doesn't reach that "happy medium"... then he doesn't think she's interested or having fun. How do you know what your partner is thinking?

In my opinion, I don't think most girls come on too strongly at first (unless the case being that they really ARE sluts)... at least from experiences i've had, you've gotta hold some back, for fear of coming off as a girl like that!

Haha... plus, if you start dating someone and piss them off someway, then you've got a little secret or or something extra hidden that can make up for whatever ya did. Lol.

Guys, I'd really like to hear your opinions on this. How do you think a girl should act when she's interested in you? Should she hold back? Would you think she was a slut if she didn't? Do guys feel the same way? Do you all feel like we'll think you're a man-slut if you come on to hard?

Opinions welcome!!!

Earlier this afternoon a conversation with my mother stemmed this topic… the topic of the dot com relationships. (her life is FULL of them) So I decided to try my hand at making a Match.com profile. Yeah, if you search it I’m on there. LOL. Anyways, in it they have like what seems like a TON of questions they ask you. One of them is a freehand, freestyle “describe yourself” and then there’s the “describe your match”. I got to thinking… these dotcom things are making searching for the right person for you, more like choosing a car! (no jokes about test driving things before purchase… lol)

As far as those questions go, I hate trying to describe myself cause it never comes out like you want it to. Here’s what I got: I like to think of myself as a fun girl, always making people laugh (although most of the time it is at me…). Most anytime I can get out of the house I take it, although it is always nice to be a homebody and just relax around the house. I love playing sports (baseball!) and try to work out pretty often. I like to think of myself as being dependable, and a lot of people have taken that for granted. Regardless, I will always be there for someone if I am needed. I live on helping others, which is part of why I am a firefighter. If I think things can work out, I’m willing to give it a chance… so what you got? The only thing i can say is that this is for fun so give it a shot.

So who is my match? Hell, I don’t know! (Because if I did, would I be making this?) I want someone who is REAL. Who is going to like me for me. Someone who laughs (both at and with) me about the stupid southpark things I say. Someone who is fun, outgoing, easy to get along with, and has a good sense of humor… you know all the stuff you usually hear. Someone who if things worked out, wouldn’t mind having those lazy days around the house, but also wouldn’t mind going out to the beach or what not. Having some in common is a plus, but it’s always nice to have your own time and friends and whatnot. And if ya don’t have that time apart and those separate interests, well that’s what drives apart most relationships nowadays. So… I'm looking to meet some new people and if something comes about then cool. I guess you never know where you’ll find someone special.

Soooo… that’s my blog for today. Let me know if you’re interested in being my dotcom match! Hahaha ;--)

Weeelll that would mean my fake birthday is comin' up so party up!

Your True Birth Month Is July

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